Sending healing light and God’s love for true forgiveness.
You are a blur to protect you.
I’m really trying to believe you have changed. I see signs that you have, but I am skeptical where both of you are concerned. I have believed in you in the past only to watch you crush my daughter’s spirit. She will be okay in the long run. I know because she is stronger than she seems. After all, she is my daughter.
Still, forgiving those who almost destroyed her is not an easy task especially when she has never received a sincere apology from either of you. One of you flatly refused to give her what she needs to heal more quickly. The other one tried to convince others that she made things sound worse than they really were. I know this is not true and so do you if you are honest with yourself.
Yet, I also know that she and I need to forgive you to heal ourselves even if your changes are only surface deep. Perhaps that is the only change you are capable of making right now. I do not know. I am merely grateful that you are both out of our lives.
The most important thing I have learned from our experience is that we are all connected. Of, course, I know we do not appear to be as connected as either one of you, but in this web of life, we are. That is why I will continue to ask God to help me to learn to truly forgive you, and I pray you both continue to grow in true understanding of others. I especially pray that you no longer perceive anyone as not worthy of you.
My Prayer Journal
In November of 2011, I shared a post, Awaiting Answers to Prayers, during a low point. I know God heard and answered that prayer, and I am so grateful for the way he answered. A delightfully different angel helped return love and joy to my family. Yet, I am still working on forgiving others and trying to be as kind as I want the world to be. That is why I feel compelled to share today’s prayer with you.
Please help me to forgive easily,
To be kind and to reward others’ kindness,
To see the world through eyes of love,
To share joy,
And to always be grateful for the journey of life.
Sometimes I think you have too much faith in me especially since you should know me better than anyone. You must realize that I am not as strong as I sometimes seem. I prayed, asking that you send angels to help and I am not sure if I missed an important answer, if you delegated to an angel who is not up to the task, if the request or even the reply got struck in a queue somewhere, or if my message somehow was spammed.
All I know for sure is my family and I still need your love and support to get through life’s challenges and I did not get a reply that I can understand. I am sure you know about my request; after all you know everything. I hope my handful of readers will understand that the details are on a need to know basis that I cannot and will not share here.
Mahalo for taking the time to listen when I know there are many others who need your help and in the scheme of things, many need you more than we do. I hope you understand that I do not ask you to abandon someone else for us. Still I hope you can spare someone who will give me clear guidance as to how to proceed.