Reflections: Where Do I Begin? 10

The last two days I have sat in this swing trying to decide how much I want to share with you to explain why I have been MIA. I realize no matter what I say it will not fully explain everything. It is impossible to see through someone else’s eyes or to completely understand their feelings no matter how much they share.

We recently passed the one year anniversary of leaving my daughter’s former school. We also passed the one year anniversary of my brother’s first surgery due to his cancer, and it has been one year since my fall and subsequent lumbar compression fracture. We are all three still facing challenges. Yet, we are all on the road to recovery.

Those who read M’s blog know she wrote a letter to her former school on her blog around the time of the anniversary. I am so proud that she chose to do so. She released her frustration and is continuing to work toward her goals although overcoming bullying is not easy.

Her anniversary coincided with the release of Lee Hirsch’s movie Bully in local theaters. Those who have been reading my blog know that the poor response it received in Honolulu disappointed me. I sincerely hope the schools will do a better job once it is on video.

I am especially disappointed that M’s former school made no effort to take the students to see it as I encouraged them to do, but they are making baby steps toward their bullying problem according to the chaplain and the elementary school assistant dean. I know both of them have their hearts in the right place and they both still express concern for M.

The high school dean is a different story, but I will not get into that here other than to say that M. still deserves an apology from the school and my request for this has fallen on deaf ears. Still, I will not give up. A new headmaster will be arriving in July, and I hope he will see that giving my daughter a formal apology is the right thing to do.

My brother had his fourth surgery recently, but he is on the mend and hopefully in a few weeks he will have his last surgery.

I was 80% better until I had a bad virus a few weeks ago. Now I am starting over with my walks and my exercises. I have faith I will get back to 80% since it really is only reconditioning and not another injury. I am still aiming for at least 90%, if not 100%. I am taking care of myself as I promised when I joined the Oxygen Mask Project.

Overall, life is good. M. is interacting with her friends again. I had a fabulous mother’s day. M. cooked my breakfast. My hubby and son and I went to see The Avengers. M. saw it the day before with her friend. Hubby even cooked lobster for dinner, so yes, life is good and I am still grateful.

Injured Yet Still Grateful 19

No, I have not disappeared off the face of the earth or stopped blogging!  Instead, I injured my back a couple of weeks ago.  I, like many in the medical profession, suffer from hardheadedness.  Therefore, I self treated for a week and a half before finally going to the doctor. 

This week an MRI confirmed that I have a compression fracture of L1 of my lumbar spine.  Therefore, I am now wearing this contraption otherwise known as a Pictures from my camera 011 - CopyCASH (cruciform anterior spinal hyper-extension) brace to avoid further injury.  I am grateful that I did not cause myself to have nerve damage during the time I avoided going to the doctor.  I am grateful that I had the foresight to use my walking poles, an over-the-counter lumbar brace made by Futuro, ice and rest at least.  I am also grateful that both of my children have been home to help.  My injury happened after my son’s school ended. 

I am grateful for wonderful friends and family who have also offered to help run errands.  I am also grateful for my in-laws who have been sending food over so I have not had to cook.  In addition, I am grateful that I have a couple of more weeks to heal before a book signing I have scheduled at the local Barnes and Noble.         

My back still hurts when I sit for long so I will be gradually increasing my blogging as I improve.  Please bear with me and realize I am still reading your blogs, but I have trouble typing for long on my i-phone so that is why I am not commenting.  I plan to start gradually walking with my walking poles and brace next week so hopefully with this and with doing therapeutic back exercises I will be okay to sit for the hour needed for the book signing.  

I also have a request.  My brother had complications from his surgery and his pathology report indicated his cancer is in multiple locations although thankfully the MRI done prior to his surgery did not show it was in any other organs.  Please add him to your pray list if you are so inclined as he will need to undergo radiation therapy once he heals from his surgery.